There are thoughts, ideas, cares, opinions, and all. the. things. swimming around inside of my heart and my head. But it seems that there is little, if any, time to type them into a computer screen and share with others. While living a life of ministry that begins, often, with 8 or 9 am coffee/breakfast dates and end around 10 pm dessert meetings...squeezing in Doula appointments and website managament, as well as building my photography business and editing photos...who has time to write and share all that goes on within ones self? It feels as though life is slipping between my fingers; but then again, was it ever in my hands? It is the facade I fall into when I am running on my own strength: that this life is mine.
Oh how I long to share what is stirring within my soul. There are aches and pains, frustrations and irritations. There are dreams and goals and visions. There are fears, often combated with peace that makes no sense. There is so much constantly coursing through this mind and heart of mine, that I am unsure how to sort through it all. It is a maze, a pile of spaghetti, a confusing mess of mush.
So for now, instead of having to say something for the sake of filling space, I will wait. I will wait until my mind and heart is a little more sorted; I will wait until I have something to say. There is a lot that I would love to say; but within that lot are things I should save for face to face coffee dates. So for now, that will suffice.
My dear friends and readers, I pray you will stick with me through this time of "writers block" and heart searching. My heart is longing to share from deep within, I simply must wait until the time is right and there is complete peace in doing so.